Pain

why the fuck should i have to go thru so much pain...
if i'm already tryin to escape from years of emotional abuse from various other people, can't i just get a break and not feel any pain during my time of the month?
it's not that it's sore, it's really bad like i can't walk type of pain... i really hate it

at least it's weekend... if my man doesn't crush my spirit again like he's starting to do again, now that i seem 'ok' after the other nite (now i have to distance myself again) then this pain will